“Making it up” implies intention. That means making a decision to pretend. This is different from having doubts, which are common early in the recovery journey for DID and OSDD.
Dissociation can make some experiences feel less real or hide others. As a result, you may question what really happened or if anything happened at all. If some parts question or deny the disorder, or don’t want you to become aware of it, they may influence your beliefs at times. This can explain why you sometimes feel like you do have DID and other times it seems questionable.
Having doubts does not mean you are making up your experiences or symptoms. TDID and OSDD often function in ways that go unnoticed, so it makes sense that you might often question your experiences during times when you notice fewer symptoms.
This page is part of the Could I Really Have DID, or Am I Imagining It? section of the CommuniDID site, which explains why recovery can feel slow, confusing, or discouraging and why experiences like grief, exhaustion, and resistance are common during the healing process.
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