Wanting closeness while also fearing it is a common experience in dissociative systems, especially when there is a history of attachment trauma. Early relationships may have involved both connection and harm, which can link closeness with risk.
In DID or OSDD, different parts may hold different expectations about relationships. Some parts may seek connection, comfort, or support, while others may expect harm, feel unsafe with closeness, or try to maintain distance. These responses can happen at the same time or shift back and forth.
This can create an internal push-pull, where one part moves toward connection while another pulls away. These reactions are not contradictory. They reflect how your system adapted to complex early experiences where closeness was both needed and risky.
This page is part of the Attachment Survival and Relational Survival Patterns in DID section of the CommuniDID site, which explains how attachment fear, fawning, and relational hypervigilance develop in dissociative systems.
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